Sun Raisinn's

"The human heart also adapts to the demands of life. Even the greatest love will never last. The saddest heart will be healed" - Sunraisinn I never thought that I'd like to drink coffee, but one day I know I need it. As time passed by, and now I am addicted.  I fell hard once, break my bones, split my mind, and give the whole of my heart. It was fun, a feeling that burned me with a lot of flames. I still remember the smell of the room on the third floor. I was there dancing with my heart full filled with love.  In a final chapter, I wrote down that story as a forever after.  But then I screamed from my bedroom floor. That final chapter changed into drops of blood in my books.  Time goes by, and I realized that I don't deserve that. So I stop the blood and soften the stone in my heart. I write another letter, I forgive. I give up. I never thought that I'll be in love once again. But then I did. A Rational feeling that brings me here, to a place that makes me feel s...

 23 Things To Do Before Turning 23 Not cutting my hair in a year (also do a blow perm for a long hair) Not coloring my hair in a year Go to Lembongan Trip Buy an expensive perfume Get 100 or more connections on LinkedIn Enroll for a Life Insurance Savings 10 Million in a year! Graduating/finishing the thesis (on my own) Cut down drinking/stop drinking Donate to a charity Adopt a pet Saving for retirement Buy a new phone Take a certification course Take a Bus Trip Buy gifts for all family members Go to a picnic date (with my bf) Go to the Museum/Exhibition Holiday in Jogja/Labuan Bajo Buy a painting artwork Go to the private concert Trip to Negara Talk to his family My list seems so harder than before, but nothing is impossible to do. 

  (CHECKLIST) My Bucket List: 22 Things To Do Before Turning 22 UPDATEE!! I'm going 22 this august! So t hese are the update from some checklist that I've been done in a year. Dinner in a Fancy Restaurant Planning a Solo Road Trip Smoking Cigarette at The Beach Be Confident Enough to Buy and Wear a Bikini Kissing Another Boy Finish 6 Books in A year! Run A Half Marathon Donate In A Charity Buy A Gift For My Family New Year Trip! Change My Hair Color Move To A New Place Buy An Analog Camera Buy & Wear A Dress Get 3 Certificate of Digital Marketing Course Do Healthy A Habit (including trying to increase my weight) Go To A Concert With My Besties Have A Lunch At The Korean Restaurant Do a 2-Days or more road trip Save More Money Working At The Most Unpredictable Place Hike a Mountain

  “Happiness only real when shared” Christopher McCandless (1992) If I was looking back then to my middle-teen age year, I was a kind of a girl who wanna be looking quirky enough to be my own main character in my life journey. I always wanna be free, spread my wings, and go everywhere I want. Having my own perception of life, living alone, and having a place that I owned myself.  I’d be feeling stuck if I stay at home all day, I don’t even care about my family either. It was just the energy inside my body that was telling me to run and explore the world. My dream was traveling and getting lost while trying to find a small place that I would call home. And then I got lost. I really got lost. Drowning in my own problem that actually was created by my own mind. It was full of loneliness and desperation of longing inside my soul. I felt like I had no one in this world, nor even myself. I don’t know where I was, what I want, and who I'll become.  At first, I thought I was miss...

“Love is always patient and kind;  it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish ; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes” - Nicole Sparks I've been thinking so much lately about it. I just realized that I've been lost a really good friend. He was right, we lost each other when we decided to be in love and try to have a relationship. Maybe love not for us, maybe we were never meant to each other. We were just too young to realized that we always feed our egos, by trying to find someone to blame. I was a bad person. Always playing the victim in every story that I told people about us. I was too angry at that time. Blame him for everything and make him look like a jerk to make myself feel better. But now my heart hurts every time I remember every good memory between us. We ...

HE: A Boy Who Stuck in His Own Reality I saw him standing in the crowded room laughing and choking but still, for him engaging is the important thing He is a smart person, always using his jokes to hide his dead-man body Even though I know he wanna run from this kind of reality He dreams a lot. About money and everything.  Cars, and girls, and fancy things And how he will die when his time is ringing A person who always bring himself an agony To be the man that he wishes he could be But he's just a boy who stuck in his own reality.

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Living alone is a kind of lifestyle that society needs to understand.  Moving out from the parental household to start an adult life seems to become an impossibility in this closes minded society (especially for a half-adult single woman). There are probably more misperceptions about living alone than any other lifestyle, despite it being an increasingly common – and even preferred – way to live. They'll probably gonna say they’re might has some issues.  Living alone is different from sharing a room with a roommate. This situation does not involve sharing an apartment even if with a besties. And in reality, humans just need a space, a moment of silence to discover who our truly-self.  It teaches us how to survive and make a meaningful moment while living in this world. I know, it sounds cliche. But, Living alone will let you spend a lot of time talking with your-self. Knowing yourself better and being with yourself without feeling lonely. That is the fact that anyone kno...

Love is in the little things, a pinch of things from this huge universe . Sometimes you don't have to be the greatest hero to feel loved or praised. Sometimes you just need to sit and feel blessed for all of the precious little things that happen in your life. Have a look at yourself and be proud of everything that you have done.  Humans tend to forget to appreciate the little things that truly matter because our vision is so clouded by all of the desires. The here and the future become our obsession. It’s a fact that human desires are infinite in this finite universe.  However, it still matters to setting goals. Setting goals helps guides your focus and helps you sustain that momentum in life. Goals also help align your focus and promote a sense of self-mastery. Yes, a goal is so important to make you feel “alive”. But when life seems so cruel or you feel denied, just remember it all is a part of life that you need to grateful for. The sun still shining and you have someone w...

My Bucket List: 22 Things To Do Before Turning 22 “my youth should be exciting,” That's what I said to myself when I was a kid. Growing up, I realized that there are a lot of things to do and learn. A moment of youth should be something that we will always remember and this moment is a perfect time to experience a new journey ahead!. Here are the things that I would love to do before I turn 22 this year!  (but I don't think I can finish them all) Dinner in a Fancy Restaurant Spending my night for a fancy dinner would be worth all of my hard work. Or is it just my thought because it is fancy? I don't know, but let's try! Planning a Solo Road Trip When I was a kid, I always imagined myself getting lost in a new place and experiencing an exciting road trip just like the movie! I have always wanted to do this since I was in senior high school, but I was too scared to do it alone. Smoking Cigarette at The Beach Sounds cringe, I know.  Be Confident Enough to Buy and Wear a Bi...

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